Well, at least I was smiling once I got through another scan this morning. Checked in at 6:30 then 2 hours later finally got escorted to a tiny trailer in the parking lot where the scan machine was located. After two failed attempts to get in the IV needle, the third one "stuck". Ten minutes later I was done.
Thanks to my dear hubby, Bruce, he insisted we take a drive to the farm. With reluctance I, agree to go. By know, I should know better, every visit to the farm brings me peace and serenity. This is what I needed to calm my chaotic mind shouting all those negative thoughts to me.
Once I arrive, I feel happiness.
It's like my horses sense something is wrong. I open the gate to see Tango, my black Friesian, he trots from the back of his paddock all the way to where I am standing, I whisper to him, "I am going to miss you, but I will be back". He simply lowers his head onto my chest and keeps it there. I can feel the warmth of his breath on my neck. He does not move.
I proceed to have a great ride on him.
"When I get on my horse the thing I always say is, "It doesn't get any better than this"
We all need to look for those moments.
I check in tomorrow at 5:30 am for surgery, wish me luck!
( Yes, my mind is quieter today.)
My favorite part of today: Getting to ride my horses.
My worst part of today: Being "stuck" three times and having to drink 10 bottles of water, yuck.
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Hey Tina,
This is Nikki from the barn. I just got Pam's email and wanted to write and let you know that we are praying for you and your family during the next crazy months. I'll keep checking your blog for updates, and I know we'll see you back in the saddle soon!
Big hugs,
Nikki
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