Not wanting to be doing this on my birthday. Since I was not given a choice, kicking cancer's butt is my gift.
Escolta, is a 6 year old PRE Andalusian horse imported from Spain. He is a sweet, kind horse who would prefer to crawl up on your lap and be a "house pet". The other is "Lilly", a 3 month old mini-horse, who is 23" tall and will mature to under 30". She likes riding around in the back seat of our truck and follows us all around the farm. The "big" horses are not quite sure what to think of her, but Lilly is sure she is the boss!
As you can see I have been quite busy and very blessed to have these new additions to our family. No time to deal with the aches and pains of chemo.
I had my fourth round of chemo and am coming up ( in a week) to my fifth round. I will have to say the side effects are getting stronger, but being so close to victory is my reward.
In less than four weeks I will be done, hopefully forever. Or at the least, for many, many years
of remission.
My heart scan was normal.
Guess that shitty, "red drug" that I told you about earlier has not been able to take me down. My heart is undamaged and looking really strong.
As I approach the end of treatment, I can't help but allow all those all those negative thoughts to creep in. Like, how am I supposed to live everyday thinking about the next scan or feeling for another "lump" on my body. After everything I have been through, I cannot allow this to take even one minute out of this precious life I am living. If I do, then I am a prisoner of this disease.
I have earned my "freedom" and deserve to live well.
I am doing everything I can to "survive" this, and so far I am.
The best part of today: Going to "play" with my new my presents.
The worse part of today: Sending my kids off to school, I like having their company.
